The Gates of Avalon
I enter the city. Lights, sounds, tastes, scenes..... But no emotions. No feelings. As human as I may seem, this is the one thing I am incapable of doing. Feeling.
My new apartment is noticeably better then my old one back in London. No traces of the turbulent past, no scars shown. I leave my bag on the mattress and look out of my balcony. A huge expanse of tiny little lights, like flames that are very far away, look back at me. The sky is showered by millions of twinkling stars. It’s a beautiful view, but to me it has no effect. No trace of nostalgia or overwhelming nervousness, not even relief of completing my journey. I leave the blinds open, and turn to the empty mattress lying in the floor. My exhaustion is becoming heavier as I walk towards it, so I let myself fall. I lay there, not caring that there are no bed sheets on it. I close my eyes and let this new city taste me. I soon fall asleep, knowing that, when I wake up, everything is going to be different. Change. But for now, I let go. The silent city embraces me.
I enter the city. Lights, sounds, tastes, scenes..... But no emotions. No feelings. As human as I may seem, this is the one thing I am incapable of doing. Feeling.
My new apartment is noticeably better then my old one back in London. No traces of the turbulent past, no scars shown. I leave my bag on the mattress and look out of my balcony. A huge expanse of tiny little lights, like flames that are very far away, look back at me. The sky is showered by millions of twinkling stars. It’s a beautiful view, but to me it has no effect. No trace of nostalgia or overwhelming nervousness, not even relief of completing my journey. I leave the blinds open, and turn to the empty mattress lying in the floor. My exhaustion is becoming heavier as I walk towards it, so I let myself fall. I lay there, not caring that there are no bed sheets on it. I close my eyes and let this new city taste me. I soon fall asleep, knowing that, when I wake up, everything is going to be different. Change. But for now, I let go. The silent city embraces me.
I woke up, a stream of light shining through the window. I remembered faintly what happened last night. The silence, the lights, the magic of it... Now it was just a lost memory. The daylight made the city more arid and unwelcoming, if that was possible. It was nothing like the previous night. The brightness taunted me, and I wished I could go back in time.
I got off the mattress and walked to the balcony. The coolness of the early morning struck me, but I didn't care. You could see the city was alive, but in with a slight air of confusion, desperation, impatience...I preferred it before. At night all you could sense was a vibrancy, a fantasy, a mystery.
I went back inside...
"Good morning" I said to myself
I got off the mattress and walked to the balcony. The coolness of the early morning struck me, but I didn't care. You could see the city was alive, but in with a slight air of confusion, desperation, impatience...I preferred it before. At night all you could sense was a vibrancy, a fantasy, a mystery.
I went back inside...
"Good morning" I said to myself
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